In may of 2007 I was 25 weeks pregnant and told that my baby son Joseph had an incurable illness called Eriploidy. I then had to make the hardest decision of my life to either, go on with the pregnancy knowing that my baby would only survive a couple of months or, to end his life before it had ever begun. I really didn't want to loose him and it broke my heart but I was told he would have a poor quality of life and he wouldn't live to his first birthday, so I knew it had to be this way. I gave birth to Joseph and he passed away during labour, that day something inside me died, holding my beautiful son I wished I had died and gone with him, I really didn't want to let him go. I was advised to leave him at the hospital but I refused to leave without him so he came home with me and there he stayed until the following week when I held his funeral. During that week I refused to let go of my son, I carried him around the house with me and even slept next to him in my bed, I never wanted him to leave my side. Now when I look back I honestly don't know how I got through that devastated time and that is where Helena comes into it. I can't really put into words what she has done for me but I will try. She visited me very often and I would just sit and sob to her. I got so low I felt sucidal for a long time and her comforting words and advise somehow helped me. I wouldn't even open my curtains of a day and would sit around crying for my baby. Helena was a great support to me, she helped me to focus on my older son who needed me but I was so distressed, she was so patient and kind to me . I've since wrote to her a thank you card but feel that isn't enough. She will never understand how grateful I truly am and I honestly believe that if it wasn't for Helena I would not be here today. She got me through a heartbraking time. She is one special lady.